kakal0ka per0 kakatuwa.
ilang dekada rin akong nawala ano? hehe. ganon siguro talaga. buhay senior eh. hehe. pagod pero masaya. kakaloka pero kakatuwa. aliw talaga ang bawat araw sa iskul. pero di pa rin maiwasang isipin na kung kelan pa mejo ok na ang lahat ay sia namang huling taon namin sa tahanang kung tawagin namin ay AEMSHS.
ganon pala ang feeling mag-senti sa tagalog ano? aliw! haha.
hay nako.. pagod pagod pagod! hindi naman sa lahat ng oras ay wala akong panahon para magOL at mag-blog. oo nga, madalas meh mga gawain, pero meh mga oras naman na free kame. kaso.. pag dumating ang oras na yon, mas pinipili ko pang matulog at magpahinga para naman bumawi ang katawan ko. kung makita nio lang ako ngayon, naka! pimples galore ang lola! wahehe. pero ayos lang. baka sign lang na malapit na ang.. ;)
madaming nangyari. imposible naman na wala di ba? ayon. research mode ang lola. pero kakatwa naman. kahet na uber problemado ako last school year at nong summer, masaia pa ren ako at nauna pa akong maging ready para sa research proposal kesa don sa mga super nauna saken. asteg ano? hehe. masipag dao. :)
bukas na pala ang research proposal. *gulp. dalawa lang naman ang pwedeng mangyari - i-reject nila ang study ko at pahirapan akong maghanap ng bago, or ma-accept ang study ko at magsimula na sa penitensia. alin mas pipiliin nio? wakeke. toinks!
nga pala, naipadala na pala namen ang UPCAT forms namin. meh portion kase don kung san kelangang pumili ng 2 UP campuses, each with 2 courses of choice. nilagay ko? UP manila:
bs nursing (course ng bayan!) pate
BA behavioral sciences (ala kase ibang non-quota course eh). UP diliman:
bs business economics (course ng achie_sish_cuz ko!) at
BA creative writing (impluwensia ni
ate saab! hehe). o diba, super sigurista. sa bawat campus, pumili ako ng sang quota at non-quota course. siempre, para siguradong pasok. asa! bwahaha! :D
pero ayoko po magUP eh. well, not UP. ayoko mag-aral sa manila. di ako bagay don. mas pipiliin ko pa somewhere quiet, somewhere far, somewhere not-so-modern, somewhere in.. zamboanga?! BUYAG! *knocks on wood. haha. dumaguete is the place to be. feel ko sa silliman eh. :)
ano ba yan.. kung anu-anong kakrungiehan ang naiisip ko. it's a sign na inaantok na ako. toinks! hehe. stay safe people. ieedit ko blogroll ko next time. di pa yan masiadong ayos. keep on visiting! wag magsawa ke reyna ng sablay, owkie? mats lab en pis! God bless! :)
Busyness.
haha. buhay pa ako! wee! =]
been very busy for the past week. ugh. pag ala namang assignment, maaga ako matulog kasi pagod. kaloka! hehe. but it was kinda fun at the same time, too. but before anything else, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY! I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH! <33
nanalo po akong society of young scientists president! effective pala ang plug ko. nyahahaha! :D (sira!) we also had this interclass competition for best sing-dance-act presentation. the results were unfair, and i'm not saying this as a sore loser. if i were to judge and exclude our batch from the list, i'd pick the sophomores or the juniors a hundred times over the freshmen. i wouldn't be this disappointed if the winning class was deserving. well, never mind. i still think my batch_i8o7 family rocks! lml
after the oh-so-tiring outing (and the oh-so-tiring day before that), i went home to be with my family. t'was my dear mama's birthday and we all went out for dinner. i didn't eat much (because i'm "anorexic". hahahahaha!!!!). but i did spend most of that time looking at my family and feeling happy that we were having dinner together, with extensions pa! my eldest brother's wife and kids were there, too, and so is my other brother's best friend/our "adopted" kapamilya (haha! peace kuya rexy!). basta, i was so happy. :)
**singit: andon din pala ang schoolmates kong magkapatid na sina kyrby at kym. nahiya tuloy ako at nakita nilang medyo girly ang ayos ni ate mars. kung di lang birthday ni mama...**
hay.. another school day tomorrow. sa lahat ng mga kakilala kong ateneans, naiinggit ako senio! i heard na-move ulet ang opening nio - sa 27 pa dao?! i know you guys are already bored with yer super extended vacation so i'm making you this offer: palitan teo ng identities? :) hahaha. *kindat.
*searching.. searching.. searching.. still searching.. ENGK!! no more thoughts found. please try again tomorrow or next online session. thank you.*
- sira. -
antukin. *wapak!
got my first UPCAT review today. can't believe it. am i actually doing this? i can't believe i'll be taking the entrance exams to UP this august. it's still 2 months away, but i'm every bit as nervous as a bride on her wedding eve. exagge. haha.
and yeah.. i'm back to normal again. the sleepyhead in me has finally awaken. *ismayl. i sleep when i have no schoolwork to do. i'm starting to think of myself as some geek. but maybe a cool one at that. hehe.
one more thing. watched the myx music awards just this evening. *groan. ugh. yasmien kurdi? fave new artist? beating brownman revival, cueshe, sponge cola, and hale? i can't even use the words in the same sentence! are you kidding me? i would've even chosen cueshe (sige na lang) over her! well, well. it's alright. i don't care anymore. i respect her music, or wachamacallit. and yeah. cueshe? beating all other bands, too? and stay? fave rock music vid? uggggghhh. who does the voting anyway?! yeesh. never mind. at least rivermaya won best vid. and i got to see parokya ni edgar and kamikazee perform "the ordertaker". haha. aliw talaga sila. \m/
tulog nako. inaantok na naman eh. *toinks! haha.
ps. crazy man si cy. kanina pa sign out-sign in mode sa ym. papansin. haha. joke lan! =]
i survived. haha.
at last, freedom! hahahaha. *kindat.
it's friday! that means i survived the first week of school! ha, you think i couldn't handle your "intimidating" requirements, don't you? not me! not marie khan sarte edding! haha.
but seriously, i feel good about my first week. so far, no cramming sessions yet. (but i love cramming!) hope that this would go on 'til march 31, 2007. *toinks! haha.
speaking of feeling good, i got a perfect score in my first chemistry lab report for this year! haha. ganon pala ang feeling? usually, chem is the one subject that causes me to go down. ugh. i feel terrible for losing my scholarship just because of chem. and yeah, losing the chance to be among the top 3 honors for graduation. kumbaga, nabahiran record ko. but it's ok. i mean, at least i'm still in aemshs with my wonderful cm8s. :) hmm. i hope that my score is a sign that i'll be doing good in my final year as a high school student.
wait, have i, by chance, told you about the subjects we have right now? no? well, i'm telling you now...
we have 2 maths (which is always the case in aemshs). right now, we are on our math 6 (calculus) and math 7 (special problems). calculus is sorta easy - just a review of lessons we had from 2nd (geometry) to 3rd year (advanced algebra). but special problems is driving me nuts! everything is so mixed up! and mostly, i forgot how to solve these word problems. some of them are elementary-level simple that i forgot how to work them out! geez, kakahiya. hehe.
we also have 2 chems - chem 3 (organic) and chem 4 (quantitative analysis). so far, i've learned to understand the lessons in them. plus, ma'am cinches almost always seems to be in a good mood, which is super duper great! guess this is a good start for chemistry. =]
our natural science 4 deals with genetics. oh, i love love love it! i'm actually thinking of genetic engineering. would it pay me well? hehe. kidding.
physics is on, too. but i'm also happy! i got perfect scores in both my first assignment and seatwork. hmm.. hope the periodic exams won't confuse me like last year..
english 4 is literature. i think i'm gonna enjoy this most among all the other english topics we've had in the past. (well, i enjoyed rhetoric writing and some debate, too.) this is where i'm given freedom to read all i want! haha. actually, i'll be buying my first novel-to-read tomorrow. can't wait!
research 3, which is still under ma'am cinches, is going smooth so far. i now have a title and will defend it this tuesday. i think it has a good chance of being accepted. but i'll be crossing my fingers just in case.
social science 4 deals with economics. ugh. we haven't started with it yet so i'm not sure whether i'd enjoy it or not. i don't really have a knack for econ, but since it affects people's lives, i might as well give it a shot.
filipino 4? we haven't met yet. haha. i think ma'am reima still has a hangover. too bad for her and too good for me. lolx.
pehm? same old, same old. *remembers something. laughs hysterically.* this is the class i'd like to call "extra". it's just another way to get away. haha.
computer 4? what's that? hahahahahahahaha. between you and me, we really don't meet up during computer class. sir mulato simply lets us be. and we get good grades for sitting around, mind you. haha. it's all a matter of good teacher's evaluation. we give him high scores, he gives us high grades. nice noh? no efforts, more free time. toinks!
have i missed anything, by chance? hmm, none, i guess. that's it for now. more news from my senior days later. i feel sleepy and we still have UPCAT review tomorrow. ugh. my saturdays are busy once more. just great. *rolls eyes* hehe. *kindat.
there's s0 much t0 d0 and s0 little time.
real life jamie sullivan and landon carter? yep, there really are people like them. just this evening, my mom told me about the family that used to be their neighbors. she recalled knowing a girl who died young because of some heart disease.
the girl had a boyfriend who was on her side through her worsening condition. clearly, they loved each other. in fact, the guy even asked the girl to marry him despite her decline -
she had only a few more months to live. now her physician advised the girl not to get married as she wouldn't be able to handle married life. he said that it would only hasten the girl's downfall. but as in love and faithful as the couple were, they still got married,
saying that God will take care of everything and that His will be done. so they got married, went for a vacation/honeymoon in cebu city, and returned to zamboanga. after a month or so, the girl died. my mom never heard of what happened to the guy. hmm.. but it's really "a walk to remember-ish", right? sad noh?
at least the girl died happy knowing that the person she loves gave her her miracle.
so much for that.. i'm so happy. my mom and i are sorta engaging in bonding sessions. i mean, we rarely fight (more likely, she rarely yells at me). we actually enjoy being with each other now. like yesterday when we went to golden bell. before going home, i told her that i'd like to eat ice cream. she told me to run along and hurry. when i returned, i guess she was surprised to see that i bought her ice cream, too. with my own money, take note. hehe. then, we just had a good time, i guess. :)
and yeah..
school's kinda tough for a first week. it's kinda hard to keep up with your pile of homework.
i feel so occupied! i mean, it seems like there's no such thing as "free time" anymore.
there's so much to do and so little time. ugh.
but i think - no, i know - i can handle this. ako pah?
so.. think i'll end here first. don't know when i'll post again. *remembers* wee! we have no classes tomorrow morning pala (except for the first subject. ugh. calculus). election of club officers! wee! boto nio 'ko society of young scientists president! haha. asa! kahet anu nah. basta either president, vice-pres, or secretary. wag sa pera ha! hihi. (buang na talaga ako.) mats lab en pis everyone! *mwapaks!
managed to get through. and it's just the first day.
pretty long day, i suppose.
woke up around 6:30am, prayed that this would be a good day, and got out of bed to get going. through all my morning rituals, i kept on conversing with myself: practicing warm welcome's to the freshies, imagining my replies to certain questions or remarks by my classmates, recalling all the experiences i could share with them, etc. and all the while, i was also praying, Lord, let this be a good start for me, please...
so yeah, fast forward. got to school, attended another boring orientation program (i've had 'nuff of these things! lies! tsk.), cleaned our new classroom (which i already love as early as now! it's never warm in that place!), sat down and kept up with the latest happenings. ugh. i/we still miss our former classmates. the four of them (jacob, paola, evan, geno) were, like, the noise machines in our batch. and even though most of us that remained are "chikadors" at some point, we still find ourselves facing a "nah-meh-dumaang-angel" moment - a moment where we all turn quiet, waiting for the other to talk again, and eventually run out of things to talk about. yeesh. i miss them so much!
whoa! *checks time* i better finish up early. class starts at 7 tomorrow and my favorite subject, calculus, is up first. (i hope you knew i was being sarcastic. haha.)
so..where was i? hmm..yeah. after all the moping around (we didn't have any regular class yet), it was dismissal time. i had my parents fetch me so we could go to golden bell and buy my school stuff. yep, i was not prepared. hehe. and there i was grabbing every useful item i could lay my hands on. bwahaha! :) while paying for my goodies, i looked around and realized that there were a lot of uniformed teens hopping from aisle to aisle. hala, medyo madami ata regionalians. and there was this guy going through the notebooks, his back turned on my view. matangkad siya.. *i squinted to take a better look* blue yung pants niya..parang pang-regional. at yung ayos niya habang nakatalikod, familiar masyado. parang..parang si.. no, it can't be! it must not be! *got a sideview look of the guy for a split second* hala ka, chinito! siya ba yan? another voice popped, hindi mars. medyo malaki katawan niyan. imposible.. cut by the first voice, ilang months na ba kayong di nagkita? malay mo may nag-iba sa kanya. waaaahhh! got so confused that i decided to leave the paying to my dad and waited with mom, still debating with myself. i could pretend to pass by the aisle and take a closer look. make sure lang ba.. no.. what excuse will i give my mom? uhmm.. eh pag siya yun, ano naman gagawin mo? i pondered on this for a while, and decided to shrug the thought off. (was that the right thing to do?!)
we then headed home. that's funny, i was kilometers away from golden bell and i can still feel my heart beat like crazy. what's wrong with me? ugh. why was this happening?!
and just when i thought my day-ender couldn't be worse, another thing came up. this time, it's nothing compared to the previous. *gulp* i finally told my parents about the cp-wallet thing. not really tell (but i was planning to earlier), just blurted out. my mama kept on asking me about my cellphone and i don't answer back. then i just spat out the words, ya perde. i mean, ya ruba. (nawala. i mean, meh nagnakaw.) and the rest is history. (note: history = nagging session from mama, a lot of tears from me, calm comforts from daddy, kumusta text message from kaka mimin, and a whole lotta pain in my already-crumbled heart. ouch.)
but overall, i wouldn't say i had a bad day. it was pretty good, come to think of it. i may not have money or a phone or the total trust of my mama, but i still have life, determination, optimism, faith, and Him. and like i told Him through my tears, Lord, kaya ko 'to. Basta, mawawala din 'to. Ok lang ako, promise...
last of summer. *babay buhai pensi0nada!*
hahaii. klase na naman bukas. at sa makalawa. at sa susunod na araw. at sa mga susunod pang araw. at sa susunod na linggo. at sa susunod na buwan. waaahh! klase na naman! simula bukas, araw-araw ko na namang dadaanan ang falcatan drive. pagsasawaan ko na naman ang mga mukha ng mga teachers kong mababaet pero katakot-takot magbigay ng assignments at tests. harutan to the max na naman kame ng klasmeyts kong baliw. full blast ingay at lagim na naman ang hatid ng batch_i8o7! bwahahahahahahahaha *nabilaukan* haha. corny. =]
ganon siguro noon. ewan ko na lang ngayon. eh kase 4th year na kame eh. malamang karamihan sa amin gusto nang magbagong-buhay. in other words, mag-seryoso. and yeah..kasali ako sa mga yon. hindi naman sa slacker ako, or what. pero last year kase, i admit na medyo nagpabaya ako sa studies ko. pero this year, isusubsob ko na talaga sarili ko sa pag-aaral - mark my word. sayang kase lahat ng hirap ng parents at kuya ko diba? [naks!] chaka siguro mas naging determinado ako dahil don sa nawala kong cellphone at wallet. di nio alam ang tungkol don?
andon kasi sa wallet na yun ang pang-enroll ko [php 6 500] plus some extra money. tas habang ginagawa ko yung requirement para ma-clear na ako, meh taong kumuha. tas pati cp ko pinagtripan na ren. kea yon, disappear! tsk tsk. eh di ko masabi sa parents ko. takot ko lang! kea si kuya na lang kinausap ko. sia nag-sponsor ng enrollment. sana pati phone na ren...*binatukan ng kuya ko sa imagination ko. asa!*
so going back, yon. di ko sasayangin ang 12 989.38 na ginastos nila saken. pagbubutihin ko talaga this year. di na ren ako maglalakwacha. [pero di naman talaga ako mahilig don. homebody ako eh.] magsisipag na ako. shet! kea ko kea 'to?! pero kelangan den eh. para naman matanggap ako sa silliman university. yon lang kase ang ticket ko paalis ng zamboanga eh. hehe. mars, snap back to reality. first day of school pa lang bukas. meh isang taon pa para pagpantasyahan ang independence. haha.
o sia sia. mag-aayos pa 'ko ng gamet, kakaen [di pa ako nag-dinner. gutom!], at matutulog. di naman sa maaga ako bukas, pero gusto ko lang maging ready. kina-career?! haha.
aii! sana maka-post ako dito nang madalas. sayang naman kung empty 'to diba? di bale, hahanap ako ng paraan makapiling lang ang bagong blog ko. ngak! =]
ingat sa lahat! God bless! mats lab en pis! v(^.^)v
singit :: dumating na ang bagong aso namen! nano [sosyal na pag-pronounce] ang name nia at pekingese den sia tulad ni jaya [sila lang ang pure pekingese sa buong zamboanga. bwahaha!]. ang kyut nia talaga! hihi. bale sampu na aso namen ngayon. wag keong mag-alala. one of these days pati kame magiging aso na ren. nyaha! later na 'ko mag-u-upload ng pix. :)
bag0ng bl0g. yipee!
haii nako. nakakapagod 'to ha. hindi ako makapaniwalang matatagalan ako sa paggawa neto. tas, eto lang ang resulta?! waaahh. sensia na ho. di naman ako expert sa mga ganito eh. tsk tsk. pero..tapos na ako! finally! hehe. bagong blog, bagong buhay! ngak! ano raw?! hehe. susubukan kong mag-post dito araw-araw. yon ay kung di ako busy sa iskul. alam nio naman, 4th year na ako ngayong pasukan. kelangan na magsipag para sa college. kea ko 'to! weee..
sige. edit ko na lang bukas yong ibang kulang. tas post den ako tungkol sa mga latest chika. hehe. antok at gutom na talaga ako. lolx. tc! God bless!
